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    Tuesday, December 15th, 2009
    intothedepths
    4:13p
    I Hate Myself
    I see your face
    Every night
    Dear brother

    I see the
    Way you look at me
    With accusation
    In your eyes
    Every night.

    Things fall apart
    Since you left

    I hate myself
    For what I did
    I can`t believe
    I never saw this coming in
    I can`t believe
    How much I miss you

    No happiness
    No Fear
    No tears
    Just nothingness

    It was all just an accident
    That`s what my parents said

    It`s what was believed
    Believed by everyone
    Except me

    I gave you
    Whatever you wanted
    Not what you need

    I can`t believe
    That your gone
    And there is
    No one left
    But me

    I can`t believe that
    I left you
    To leave me
    All alone

    Alone

    So alone

    And it`s
    No one`s fault
    But me

    I hate myself
    For what I did
    I can`t believe
    I never saw this coming in
    I can`t believe
    How much I miss you

    I gave you what you wanted
    Not what was needed
    I may as well have
    Stuck the needle in myself

    God damn help me

    They found you
    In your room
    Skin as white as snow
    Eyes and mouth open
    The needle was
    Still in your arm

    I hate myself
    I did this
    I killed my younger brother
    My one true good friend
    Now I`m all alone

    It`s all my fault

    God damn this

    God damn me

    If I wasn`t such a fucking coward
    I would just take my life

    Instead I fade away
    To nothingness
    Monday, December 14th, 2009
    intothedepths
    10:06p
    Still Standing
    Let me tell you a story
    About two friends
    One girl
    One boy
    And their life story

    Not long ago
    In a small town
    in the middle of nowhere
    Were two lost souls
    That found each other

    The two lost kids
    They didn`t have too much
    And they never asked for nothing

    They just played the game
    And shoot up shit

    Ain`t no sunshine when your low
    I`m low
    People tell me life`s a game
    I`m not playing
    Bitches don`t mean a thing no more
    I took my blows and I`m still standing

    You see
    there wasn`t much
    To do in this one hores town
    The only thing to do was drink it
    Smoke it or shoot it up
    And fuck.

    And that`s what Wendy and Mark just did


    Evey goddamn chance they got
    Like rabbits
    Even though they didn`t have their own place
    Fucking in Marks car
    Jumping into windows in the dead of night
    Fucking all night
    Fucking during lunch in the stalls

    Well we know where this is going
    And it wasn`t too long before she said
    "I`m pregnant".

    Oh man what was Mark to do?
    So god damn glad I wasn`t in his shoes
    16 years old
    Just barely a man
    But if you get it up
    Stick it in and blow
    You deal with the consequences

    Aint no sunshine when your low
    Im low
    People tell me life`s a game
    I`m not playing
    Bitches don`t mean a thing no more
    I took my blows and I`m still standing

    Now I know it wasn`t all Mark`s fault
    After all it takes two
    Wendy wasn`t an angel.
    After all she spread her legs for this

    To happen

    Thoughts spilled through her head
    Of what to do
    "Keep it? Abort it? Tell my mom about this?
    Tell me God, what must I do?"

    She kept the child and moved in with him
    Now two 16 year olds
    Not finished school
    What do they do?

    Now Mark got a job
    At the factory
    Working afternoon shifts
    Doing hard work
    Always in a sweat
    Never seeing friends
    Not even on weekends
    After all with him
    Wendy and a mouth on the way
    He even worked seven days a week

    Ain`t no sunshine when your low
    I`m low
    People tell me life`s a game
    I`m not playing
    Bitches don`t mean a thing no more
    I took my blows and I`m still standing


    Now in time
    The baby came to be
    A little boy
    So innocent
    Mark loved that child
    With all his heart
    So much so that Wendy got jealous

    Alone all day just
    Her and the baby
    No one came to visit
    Not even her parents.

    She just stayed at home and
    Stared at the idiot box
    Waiting till Mark finished work

    Come in
    Crawl in more like it
    He`d look at the baby
    Touch his cheek
    Kiss him on the forehead
    And then head off to sleep

    Yeah Wendy had it a bit bad
    No one to kiss
    touch
    make her cum
    Let alone say she`s loved

    It wasn`t too long
    Before she strayed
    To the neighbor next door
    She was told he was a good lay

    It was

    She felt better now
    She felt loved

    Saw him every afternoon
    Yes she did
    While the baby slept

    Ain`t no sunshine when your low
    I`m low
    People tell me life`s a game
    I`m not playing
    Bitches don`t mean a thing no more
    I took my blows and I`m still standing


    Now I`m sure you can guess what`s next
    I know I sure fuckin`did

    Mark felt sorry
    He fet bad
    He had a wife and kid
    He never saw
    So he wanted to spend some time
    With her and him
    And show Wendy how much he loved her

    He took the evening off
    His boss didn`t mind
    After all Mark was never late
    He was always such a good boy

    He went ome around four o`clock
    He found his wife in bed

    Ain`t no sunshine when your low
    I`m low
    People tell me life`s a game
    I`m not playing
    Bitches don`t mean a thing no more
    I took my blows and I`m still standing

    Well the shit hit the fan
    Mark raised his hand
    Slapped Wendy full across the face
    "How could you do this? You bitch. I cared for you
    I fed you. Put the clothes on your back
    This is how you repay me? You slut"

    And with that he found his gun
    Shot her. Shot him and then looked at his son
    Crying away


    He picked him up
    Held him tight
    and rocked him to sleep
    Set him down in the crib
    Mark told the baby "It`s best this way"

    Mark took that gun
    Placed it under his chin
    Asked God to forgive him
    And pulled the trigger.

    Ain`t no sunshine when your low
    I`m low
    People tell me life`s a game
    I`m not playing
    Bitches don`t mean a thing no more
    I took my blows and I`m still standing

    Now I I know you want to know
    The baby`s fine
    Adopted
    And doing fine
    Living out of town
    Moved to the city
    He was too young to remember a thing

    And two other things I know
    »You mother fuckin` wanna know
    Is there are a morel?
    Well shit if I know
    Which brings me to the second part
    Did this happen
    I really don`t give a fuckin` shit what you think

    But yes

    Ain`t no sunshine when your low
    I`m low
    People tell me life`s a game
    I`m not playing
    Not playing no fuckin`more
    No
    No fuckin`more more more
    Bitches don`t mean a thing no more
    I took my blows and I`m still standing
    intothedepths
    8:24p
    and she really does have such an innocent face

    love the song



    Saturday, December 12th, 2009
    intothedepths
    10:02p
    Looking For Dawn
    Can you hear it?
    Can you feel it?
    Chilling through your bones?

    The writing is on the wall again


    The war is upon us
    There is no escape
    Stay and die
    Escape and die another day

    No escape
    Only for today

    Run as far as you can
    Run as quick as you can
    Don`t look back
    Don`t turn your head
    Just keep looking ahead

    No time
    To pick up mementos
    Just go

    You hear the bombs go
    Smell the flesh
    That burns

    ear the screams of terror
    In the darkness of the night

    Don`t stop and fight
    Don`t stop to help
    Don`t stop out of fear

    Just go

    Time is not on your side
    Time is just a fleeting moment
    A term that has been overused
    Time after time

    Just move

    Get out the door
    And run for your life

    And pray you live
    To see the dawn
    Once more
    intothedepths
    8:43p
    Stay here
    Stay here

    Stay here with me

    Stay here

    Remember with me
    The world can wait

    I say to you again

    Stay with me

    Ignore what everyone says

    Stay with me
    Today

    Stay with me
    With our baby

    Stay here with us
    Forget about every
    Other thing

    Stay here with me
    Remember the way we were?

    Stay here
    Don`t open the door
    The world can wait

    Remember the way we were before?

    So young and free
    Not a care in the world
    It was just you and me

    Stay here
    with me

    Remember how it used to be

    Stay here

    Don`t walk out
    That door
    You do
    And I will leave

    Stay here

    Recount with me

    Let me hold you in my arms
    And I will feel so free

    Stay here
    with me


    No one else matters so much

    It always has been you and me

    Don`t walk out
    That door
    You do
    And I will leave

    Just stay with me
    Friday, December 11th, 2009
    intothedepths
    12:28a
    Smile
    Sometime I look back
    At things
    That I lived though
    And a smile appears

    Remembering the good times
    Forgetting the bad life

    Never forgetting what I had
    And I always shared

    With you...

    Always together
    Always and forever
    Thats what you said

    And I did too...

    Looking back now
    I see how naive
    And young we were

    We`re not together
    Not now or forever
    But I will always
    Think of you

    Every day
    Every night
    I will always
    Think of you
    As my shining light

    It`s been so long
    A generation has gone

    And you...

    I smile when I think of you
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